How did I get here?
I found myself researching how to do a perfect push-up. I have been training in martial arts for 7 years and we do push-ups in every class. I still remember trying to decide if I would start training all those years ago, and the one thing that held me back for a few months was knowing I was unable to do push-ups.
I didn’t want to look bad in front of my classmates. I didn’t want to feel bad inside. I couldn’t do 10 push-ups in the first class, but I never gave up. Every class I did as many as I could. I rested when I needed. I joined back in if possible. Some days I felt like crying when we did several sets of them in one class.
In this month of May, my Chief Instructor declared it to be push-up challenge month. We will do 1,000 push-ups this month. Oh boy.
With that, I decided that I will get to a point of doing one beautiful push-up.
Remember that I used to not be able to do one in any fashion. I am now able to do 150 push-ups in a class. But I will be very clear – they don’t look good. My arms are too far forward, my body lowers in a triangle instead of a plank, and my nose does not get anywhere near the floor. When I start to get down, I realize there are many people who can’t do 150 push-ups as well as I can.
I was going to make the goal to do 10 perfect push-ups. And then I had a moment of clarity. It all starts with one. One that looks great. One that leads to the next one. And one that makes me feel like it is possible.
I have made the decision. And now, I have told people.
Don’t wish me luck. Wish me strong arms, and shoulders, and personal resolve.
I am researching how to get better. I am practicing. Those 1,000 push-ups in May will certainly help.
How did I get here? Indeed.