How did I get here?
I am scheduled to test for my brown belt in July. I have been practicing, both physically with all my moves and mentally for the stress of the test. I have told people and committed myself and can even envision myself with that brown belt being tied around my waist.
Even the push-ups are going well.
The test in July was also a critical milestone in my journey for another reason. Big One and Little One are testing for their black belts in August. I am okay with them being ahead of me, and yet I felt competitive to get achieve my brown belt before they took theirs off and had the black belt placed on them.
I am now in a position of deciding to put off my test for one more month. I found out my Grand Master, Chief Sebastien, is away in July on the date of the test. I have trained with him for 7 years, and he has tested me for every belt along the way. I could test with someone else, and achieve my brown belt, on the schedule I set. I weighed the options:
1) Test in July. Meet my goal on timing, and let Big One and Little One achieve their black belt before I achieve brown.
2) Test in August. Miss the goal on timing, and have the brown belt tied around me by Chief.
I thought about it for several days. I realized that option 1 would make me feel better for 30 days. And option 2 would make me feel fantastic for life. 31+ days from the test in July it won’t matter what day I got the belt. Each day after that, I will know that every belt I achieved has been earned in the eyes of Chief, and tied on by Chief. When he looks at me, and blesses my belt, and ties it so tight I can hardly breathe, I’ll smile so wide it will make him smile. And when he shakes my hand, we’ll both know we got here together.
How did I get here? Indeed.